I bring a lot of Golden Retriever energy to most situations and relationships. I work in a difficult field of Information Technology. I get a huge surge of joy when I know my clients are happy but on the flip side, I tend to go toward negative self talk when I am not able to keep people happy.

I see this as a character flaw that is another item to add to the ole working on me list. Trying your best to be a good client advocate is key to success, however speaking ill or self hate speech is not healthy. Especially when in reality, keeping everyone happy all the time is not possible. Let’s face it, being in a service based industry if everything was working fine all the time, I’d be out of a job. I love my career and have dedicated almost half my life to it.

This post isn’t about my job, it’s about how I react to certain situations that are not mentally or emotionally healthy that my job happens to spot light. But these areas are there, part of me regardless to what I do. Which is why I need to work on them. Do better. Be kinder to myself. Learn to give grace that I do for others to myself.

Learning to be in love with yourself is not a linear experience. It has its ups and downs, ebbs and flows. So, I will get back up, knock the dust off, keep moving. After all, I am proud of my golden retriever energy. I wouldn’t change it for anything. It has saved me from some dark places and serves me well.